well, i'm also in 'her' place nowhere near that line. frankly speak, i'm screwed up right now.

if before i like to involve with love,

two love

and then triangle love. (quite frustrated, right?)

how about change to dream, sacrifice and inspire.

speak of mine, i had two different dream. like night and day. and very hard to achieve. i admit.

one is mathematically business. another is scientifically fiction. well, i'm also in 'her' place nowhere near that line. frankly speak, i'm screwed up right now. :*(

hence the laughter

Random pics #5

introducing our sauces and spices at home. p/s: this is totally random. i have no idea why i took this picture.

haagen-dazs, urrmmmm....so delicious. to promote. i personally like belgian chocolate. cos it less sugar and a bit bitter from the chocolate. so have this everybody. hee.

blackberry vs ipod touch. why one the best? none of them. hahaha. let's make another deal. check out for Iphone everybody. the 5 one coming soon. (jk2)

TVXQ. AKTF. i always loved this group. never change even there is lots of new group coming out. no one can beat them. fighting!

JYJ. despite of the lawsuit, they separated. but i still loved them. :D

guess who is she? it's eywa again! proudly showing off her overstands out eyelashes in which she had make over with maybelline.

"shhh! alex and marty having a serious converstation right now" said hafiza

ok!ok! i know this is totally disgusted. but i'm still show it cos this is what i've removed DESIRABLY, from stucked up sink, eventhough it's a bit sick.

hence the laughter

Random pics #4

these two are unfamous-fashion-show. "eywaaaa...! i'm gonna smacked ur head after this." nway NICE! :D

nice faces for puzzling.

never forget the last moment we had. it was awesome babes. :D

HA-HA-HA. xD

hence the laughter

concerning and worrying, both are different thing. right?

i know. i know. people would think that this is just a smallest thing to worry about. well u noe, me. hehe. not really getting hysteria but just CONCERNING. concerning and worrying are different things right? nway on that day, i was basically concerning about blackheads on my nose. so decide to do this, some sort of homemade facial. did I just said HOMEMADE? sorry. that's just sounds wrong. some kind of facial therapy. it's natural. which means that chemical free. nothing to do with artificial cream, moisture of anything. hee. :D

first facial process is to do with EGG and TISSUES. i know some of u guys maybe disgusted when egg is ON ur face. but girls, being disgust only for 15 mins wouldn't be that eeuuwww. cos the smooth and fair skin is what we get in return. hee :D

second facial process is to do toothbrush and toothpaste. i know this is looking so odd to me but the combination of toothpaste on nose doesnt really disgusted, unlike with egg. when i tried, the mint doesnt really felt on nose, maybe cos brushed it too hard. better try it slowly next time. (nodding).

and this is the result after both process, actually i would've call this as a big proceed. proceed for removing blackheads. xD

hence the laughter

Random pics #2

milo ais, butterflies, ber..ber.., kangkung...milo ais,butterflies,berber,kangkung, M.I...mi...L.O...lo

MILO! its a games song of milo ais, i missed it so much. x

durian, i missed it but not really, i mean i'll eat just one piece of it. perhaps.

eywa's artwork. isnt it cool? she loved sewing but she's lazier enough to sew my pant. LOL

British KFC. absolutely marvellous but nothing compare to real KFC msia. miss it so much.

lastly Eywa and Fatin, what are u guys stalking at? RANDOM GUYS! of course! lolz

hence the laughter

Untitled confession - code we trying to know you, that's all

We had an argument a while ago, not big deal but small matter u noe girls...the story starts, F discovered our NOT-REALLY-A-SECRET!she start to ask E and E doesnt meant to lie or hiding it. She was on her way to tell F. but it too little too late. she found it first and think it 'negatively' i mean some misunderstanding happen in this. the secret was involved M and E and I mainly hide it because of F bro birthday. E and I promised to come early to F house in the morning but cancel.
my dad ask us to come to CBS. we cannot refused it. cos we moaned about hanging out with family the other day before. so. we still going. we didnt know M coming until his dad rang my dad and said tht he's coming. my dad totally shocked cos they coming, it is very rare tht they would come with us on tht day.

and the badminton game with M, in which F really disappointed on. the most. we didnt really plan to play. but IQRAM (uncle Khairul son) bought new badminton set for 4 players. so I want to join them. E doesnt do anything on that time, she's shy and I was the one who being giddy to play, and the game was ACTUALLY BETWEEN ME, EYWA, IQRAM and MUSTAQIM.
nothing bout him at all, he just urgh! idk hw to describe. THAT's ALL!

but in sudden an hour ago, F getting mad at eywa and saying this

A RANDOM MSIAN PEOPLE? excuse me? (i didnt get that word properly)
after all we being through and u said we treat u like a random msian? truly disgraced.

second thing, i've said to her i want to come to her house and she said no one in house and dont bother coming.
i asked why, this is her answer. SY XNK CKP SBB SY X NK UNGKIT BENDE LEPAS. excuse me again. but i think she bring it up first especially the old trafford story. we had plan to go out on tue 28 June to go out and i believe. in fact positive
that i hv said we will go out at 9pm but suddenly u sent me text saying i came at 12 something.
not trying to blame this on any of us whether it is between U, Me or E but to solve it. instead. i want to solve it cos IT'S OUT MATTER, OUR FRIENDSHIP AND WE HAD GONE THROUGH IT.

but F, i hv to say something, why did u say
"korg mcm let do fun things n not to get fatin involved. xyah btau die pon."
do you really think that we having fun? uhuh! we're not at all. M is nothing compared to u. we had more fun when we with u
one thing to remind F: we never had tht intention in mind. how could us? if we think that u're close friend to us and
no one else is. PLUS we trying to know u. u noe.

but its ok. if this happen. we can try to forget it like u always did.
lastly i apologize for EVERYTHING...


OK! stop the drama, here is the most precious to me. atirah my BFF like our T and she called it DP (i actually hv no idea what it is stands for) but nway she's liked it and i'm glad to hear it. if i hv a chance, i wouldnt mind to buy one for her. she'll fit it most
the fact tht she had clashed with his recent bf so i'll suggest her to seek for a new one. who deserve her truthfully and better than a piece of rubbish! btw no matter what tira, i'll support u from behind and good luck buddy! imyilysmuch xxx.

p/s: one thing to learn; try to treat people on their best but not to change them cos it is the best way for them... I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.

hence the laughter

Yesterday, candid pics

cappuccino break in boundary mills store, act we had it today after went to CBS.

the scenery on the way, isnt it cool? living in greenish countryside. :D

3rd July, which is today and it is Faiz (Fatin's little brother) birthday. i bought him a full set of transformers card game and that why he got this hyper (being sarcastic). nway Happy Birthday Little Buddy :)))

candid of eywa, while having lunch in MCCH. our menu was nasi with lamb curry. NICE :D

fatin is there too, still peace yh! u while eating. lolz xD

the starter before lunch fox's biscuits. and candid with fatin keys cos i like the combination. hee.

this is Zara, a-little-sweet-pie who 'randomly' came to us and chat. nway she's cute though.

this is one of the slacker who doesnt want to continue playing yesterday and
just sat there showing off her pinky-fake-crocs. xDDD

hence the laughter

Random pics #1

my new top from Peacock.

silly eywa :D

new bought little miss T but only me and karis had it.

original pic actually look like this

lastly little miss seeks mr. perfect. hahaha. xD

hence the laughter

I HATE U

it wasnt my type to moan about this,
ANYMORE
but i can't cope with it somehow

.........

but i tell u what!? this is the fifth,
i being complained, and it a bit tough
to bare with patience, u noe!!!???

i'd tried no matter what, but
"i'll tell u what, when u have child-----better teach them how to clean???"
excuse me, what was that huh??? Monkey-head???
who do u think u are?, i've got brain to think, ear to hear
ALRIGHT?? so i'd get what u mean....

just because one simple thing, u out of ur politeness,
i'd never heard of that since i noe u in Sept last year,
i'd respect u so much, even ur wife, eventhough
I HATE IT WHEN I DID IT.

cos i guess u guys just gonna blame one-side
and i mean is just what u hear, not
from explanation. u guys just blabbering
without knowing what is going on.

and TBH, i guess u guys dont have brain
when doing something act, not us,
we think out what we're doing,
although, we not as perfect as u want us to be...

hence the laughter

its true what we called there's no happy ending in our life, *only happy moment*

flipped.
sick of all of this frustration, grievance, annoyance, depression.
why won't there a space of happiness.
its true what we called there's no happy ending in our life,
*only happy moment*
everything we through in life is everything we learn
through mistake that we made in daily life.
some people even repeat their fault
eventhough they know it's wrong.
but there's also people who cant defeat with their fate.
their destiny. their obstacle.
they pretend to believe but in truth, they aint

they just want to smile so tht another wont hurt
confession is right choice to everyone.
you tell and you shared

but somehow it would hurt another.
and you wont know it.
cos they dont tell, and u didnt ask.
but so far in this. what u know is just to handle it,
and keep it secure in mind tht it is unknown.

hence the laughter

guilty shadows

twinkle twinkle little star
how i wonder what u are.

******

people see thing.
various. many type. bright and dark.
but somehow between those line
grow a shadow where no one believe
was it right or wrong
no one can judge.

but inside, the guilt that grow for long
she cant handle it, she had enough with it
she just want to get rid. but no one care.
no one ever ask how she feels
inside.

she shame of herself. living with those shadows.
she wishes she could alter her page.
till its torn and fade away.
and start to begin
from the beginning.

time traveler!

invisible. and go to those one of the most fantasies
life tht never exist in this world.
as she wishes unknown.


- if it truth, this would never started -

hence the laughter

eywa's simple part 3: confession addictive

the time we shared, the laugh we 'exposed', the cry we expressed
mostly means so deep. well i dont really know how to put it word gracefully,
as u'all know i'm not one of poetry girl or quoting brainiac,
so dont really mind, if dont get it, just ignore,
if u get it, then let's thought about it ;)
i wrote thing that came in my mind.

-NWAY BACK TO MY CONVERSATION-

i missed moment tht we spent, and place we marked before,
its difficult for me to express what i meant, but i know there's
a reason that we belong together and stay strong with the bond we built
from the 1st and till now, we dont even want to miss tht moment,
so to fatin, karis, eywa and hafiza
dont be sad let's enjoy our very time till our very end.

hence the laughter

eywa's simple part 2: our happiness

hence the laughter

snowball fight in 1st Dec

1st December, the day we'all started,
we'all started to freaked out cos of overslept.lol
as we'all deadly tired cos of flippin' assignment. lol
cant be bother to walk to college seriously, i'd backbone ache
in which struggle my back to bow down like-a-sick-old-woman
seriously? ;p

-i'm mad maybe-

anyway,
enjoy myself with this common buddies,
well as u all know eywa and karis,
karis desperately need boots for her freakin (creppy hand sign)
dance day hah!
(whispered) well 2 b honest, i wont deny the fact tht high-heel better than boot

but this girl!

OMG!

seriously
we spent about 1 and half hours in town,
for finding BOOTS! (look how ridiculous' is tht)
2 reveal: she's kind of fussy-girl (in good way) ;P

but i dont mind, if i'm in her shoes, i would be same. lol
(just to distract really)

nway back to the topic, we actually had fun today,
trekked on heavy snow,
it was pleasantly awesome first, but after u wont said the word
i mean its crakkin'. my bone especially. lmao
frozen all around the body. lol xD

guess what! we had snow ball fight!, absolutely cool and fun
in the end we look like snow-man cause from it, hah! hw silly of us :O

nway it was such a beautiful day truthfully :D
for hos who missed (fariha) take a chance before u lost 'em haha. xD
tht's all actually i wanna to share. hehe :))

hence the laughter

i'm truly nervous, lonely and scared

will it be fine to do something that is new and the start for you, without someone that you could rely on. it's probably mistaken cos there is like hundred people that doesn't even know each other gathered in the same room but only few of it come with their friend and the rest is unknown and unfamiliar. i'm the one of them who doesn't really have a friend in that area and seem to be lost cos don't really know what to do, where to go, and why am i here for. and no one know.

...that's why i'm truly nervous, lonely and scared right now...

hence the laughter

lesson# 1:

LIFE is not practically about moment that you ever care but it is about learning of being accepting and defeat for something that you might lose once.

hence the laughter

'heyya! what did you get for your result?'
excuse me!( what would u expect me to say)
that's what kind of a big slap to me now. always running
on and on in mind.

i'm abit of messed up this morning about my qual.
which is wasn't as good as expected.
it was horrible. i'm nearly 'put my hand and head down'.
like i'm totally admit my defeat.
'screwed up' for all of this mistake.
absolutely useless thing that i ever made in my life.
and pointless for almost half of my midyear highschool.

what the point? that was the word that keep
'roaming' and 'roaming. like a huge bounce
that held tightly.

i'm totally pointless and no clue
for what i'm doing right now
sort of doesn't make much sense for certain
reader. sorry for that. but that a fact to me.
i dunno what to say. i'm pointless. again.

no point for overall.
:(((
(just ignore if it's annoy)

hence the laughter

i was totally screwed up!
can't even close my eyes.
it was half past 4 in the morning. past the midnight already.
flippin head.
i'm totally insane.
keep on messing.
lolz.

(i bet it cos of the humania-disease........lol.xD)
i really dont want to go back school!

urgh!
xP

anyway,
check what i found,
spoof of Justin B song.
cool man. :P

hence the laughter

I rather watching this drama

instead of revise for these 'flipping heading paper' hoh!

seriously i'm kind of piss with what have i told by miss about that freakin test

,,,,,,,,

o whatsoever!;

it totally mean though, how could she?
kicked us out of the class,
just b'cuz they can't passed the test.
that's horrified! totally unfair.

i dont care!

no matter how it is, i don't give a damn for it! full-stop!

hence the laughter