Part III:

The darkness mood at night,

was abit cold but at the same time,

relax, just after that i'd a quick chat with my grandma,

shared everything about loveliness in our youth,

it was really appealing

anyway, back to my topic, i just had enough

with my GCSE exam few weeks ago,

extremely runs my nerve out

with loads of pressure and tension

at the time,

i just can't believe it.

for thee three years, i just REALLY

learn thing when i am 16 (wth?)

on the other hand, i feel worth though,

but it just tiring sometimes......

i just wanna get rid of it quick (!)

*****

despite my phone got soaked yesterday,

i just dropped it by accident

in the river. while we were having

barbeque dinner with MCMH families.

hurm~

FEEL anger but what can i do,

its a fate to drop on that day,

:(((

i guess it is my fault, i should've aware of it first

before its happen.

i just can't believe it.

(honest)

p/s: though, i tried to forget all of this 'chaos' that i made, just keep it up for next exam hafiza, go for it! (like the way Dammy's says)

hence the laughter

i had common lesson today, the same
as yesterday, and the other day
and last few weeks and over the last few months
how pathetic and tedious.

anyway, forget that for a minute,
i just had five places for colleges now,
however,
i suppose to say that i've rejected three of 'em
cos of the fact that it
was further than my house.
haha.
wohoh, i wouldn't be mind if there is
some sponsor.

well, i'm a bad runner, u noe,
not even tried about bloody miles.
it's tiring.
i'll be out of control maybe,
lolz. xD

afterall, that's not the point nway,
it was exam coming sooner.
argh!

hence the laughter

i'd my interview just now. about an hour ago.
it was from Manchester College actually
& d interview was abit tougher than before

"i knew it"!

this gonna happen.
but i didn't pray or hope for it.

i'm just one of those who are weak
and who want to have a chance
to succeed to an ivory tower.

i noe i haven't got any confident somehow.
but i'll fight for it!
insyALLAH~

hence the laughter

creepy, crap, disturbing and it totally horrible.
freakin horrible having a conversation with people who either duff or deaf, i dont really know and have no clue

why...why (???)

why she suppose to blame me for things that i didn't do at all.
so stupid and it was eventually run my nerves out
as well as making me feel embarrassed.

so shameful and foolish, (wasn't it?)

well, i did my best to defend myself but still feel pain inside, moreover i was not well on that time. my mind even blank during chemistry lesson just now, i have no idea what sir has said cos its just blank!.................... and i think only 40% i can understand about those atom/molecule or wateva topic it is, most is just: 'what the heck?' or just 'noddin' my head like yeah,ok,rite.... blablabla....!!!!!freak me out! it was seriously pissed,

i shouldn't be nice to her, better to get away from her evilness next time. b*&$£!

anyway, forget about that, rather than talk rubbish, i would like to show u lot these:

some of my bestmate, artwork, she loved to draw animation really, (its good doesnt it?) but the thing is i dont get why everything that she drew always handed out to me. so weirdo!

our latest photo which has took on muna's buffday; i sneaked out to print this at school actually, although it banned! so silly me. lol

p/s: however, i cant wait till my winter-term finish next week, and everyday gonna be off for their Christmas Eve, yeppi! . it will be fun though, hopefully everything that i planned will turns up finely.

hence the laughter

ABORTION! i can see that one coming this morning. well miss england had this argument, this morning. not for afraid but for learning. well u noe me, don't u? something that get in my mind will just blow away easily. how random. lolz. xD

not only that, it's getting even worse when miss told us how they did those abortion thing. and i was like, 'what the hell?' seriously it ridiculous! flippin get my mind bursted. $%*#0...!!

how pathetic, oh well, forget about that, im just distracting u's load actually. what i do care now is the exam really. nearly 2 days left. the nervous is getting more and more fright.

....................and u noe what i would for this exam: recon for just frankly dead instead of taking those bloody wimble papers. no way! its just a flippin paper really. no matter how i need to do it! (blabbering 'cut it out fiyzza!')....................

p/s: btw pray for me ya! hopefully everything finish finely. InsyaAllah! Amin~ :D

hence the laughter

fellow who is frenzied...haha..xD

hence the laughter