i noe that it maybe against and its a sin to say this

its been a week and 2 days now,

we went college without HER,

feels abit empty inside but there's nothing i can do with it,

want to cry, there's no point, want to share, there's nobody that i comfort with at the moment,

why was its lonely inside,

now in the week, since Monday, two of youth supporter,

asked me about HER, why?., i just dont get,

why right now? why was the day that SHE's fine,

i dont want to tell, i seriously dont,

i just want to forget about what has happen

i dont want to believe to be honest,

although i said it many times, but inside,

i dont think i did. believe it,

i feel normal like i used to be,

-----strange-----

but that what happen in real,

although i really dont want to believe this,

but it just came in my mind whenever i said it,

i noe that it maybe against and it's a sin to say this,

but why this happen to HER?

she's a nice person, clever, well intelligent than me,

i noe that sometimes i annoyed & said bad thing to her,

that just happen when i mad,

but to be honest, i dont really mean it,

i noe i bad, not as good as other people,

but pls, i just dont get it, and i hope i will in the future,

pls help HER and save her from suffering,

i noe she can fight this, she's tough, her parent also tough,

even her brothers and sisters as tough as HER,

pls dont take her now, i'd still have alot thing to tell, and

maybe she has alot of thing to say to us, pls,

"Ya Allah Ya Tuhanku,
kuatkanlah zahir and batinnya dalam menempuh

dugaanMu, dan aku berharap
agar dia dapat membuka matanya

melihat alam ini dengan cerah
dan tiada pertentangan yg menghalangnya, selamatkanlah

dia daripada sengsara dan
sembuhkanlah dia, tolonglah Ya Allah,, makbulkan doa hambamu ini"

~Amin~

hence the laughter